Are we aware that it also leaves traces? Sound traces, melodious sound vibrations, by means of which we can basically express our personality and take up space in the vastness of our existence.
Basically…
because we all know that this vocal happiness usually does not last long.
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Most people enter the so-called stage of life through wonderful, healthy self-assertion: the first scream. From head to toe, we are filled with sound and the will to survive, while we are relieved and welcomed by all present. But this vocal happiness, intended by nature, falls into the clutches of a society that likes to judge.
Gnawing about our sonic expression and thus our ego spreads. Suddenly we are measured by the how, when and why of our vocal development.
The whole thing is unfair. After all, every person's voice is their most personal trace. Unlike individual fingerprints and footprints, it is shaped by everything that makes up our life – body, mind and soul. In this holistic sense, it unites our personality and yet is separated; by an environment that believes it has the right to take control of it and criticize it. These circumstances make the voice fragile. It shifts its position, loses its centre and its focus. It changes its former character - and we change with it:
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Self-assertion turns into despair,

joyful expanse into tense narrowness and thus into fear,

the carrying capacity of our voice atrophies,

the disappointment about this is expressed in frustration and rejection.

An elementary part of our ego was thus usually separated in childhood, filtered out of communication with our other ego parts or at least shaped according to the wishes of our environment. This means that this vocal ego part no longer corresponds to its originality and mood.

The resulting change in character happens gradually, barely noticeable, atrophies silently.

If we must or want to assert ourselves, we fall into extremes:

Depending on our character, we shout unhealthily from the back of our throats because we have been robbed of our steadfast self-assertion and active body energy. This is why we hardly feel able to find the appropriate tone for discussions because we can no longer navigate it within the centre of our body, the solar plexus area. As a result, the aggression that arises here prevents appropriate vocal expression.

Or we lose our voice, we have to clear our throat, feel a lump in our larynx, our ears ring, our head turns red and hot, our voice, legs and arms shake, beads of sweat appear on our forehead.

And so we shrug our shoulders, which usually hang forward, use this movement to breathe upwards and surrender to silent resignation.

So far, so bad...

It's just a shame that it's not just our vocal origins that are affected, but the parasympathetic nerve structure as well. Here, the vagus nerve is the tenth cranial nerve. It is considered an antagonist to the excitation-friendly sympathetic nervous system and, of all things, wanders – in the vocal context – through all the areas of our body that would love to be bursting with space, self-assertion, confidence and free sounds: through parts of the ears, the larynx with pharynx and soft palate, the vocal cords, heart, lungs and bronchi, the diaphragm and the solar plexus below.

Our life, which is maintained by flowing energies, by balancing power relations and maintaining homeostasis, cannot balance the scales of its own existence in the long term. This can be seen in the imbalance between body, mind and/or soul (allostatic load).

This state is depressing. To compensate, we grit our teeth, press our lips together, tense our backs, harden our buttocks, darken our facial expressions and, as a result, give the impression of resistance and rejection:
The skin is pale, the shoulders are drooping, the gait is shuffling in a suspicious, fearful posture - the joyful, powerful energy of the first hour - where have you gone?

Such weakness feeds aggressiveness and even powerlessness - the serious consequences of a lack of self-assertion. A vicious circle from which we can only free ourselves if we find our way back to our origins and the automatisms of our body, and especially of the autonomic nervous system (ANS).​
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This is where the vagusonar idea comes in.